I dont quite get what youre on about but whatever it is that youve recently discovered about yourself, know that when youre close to Allah nothing can go wrong.
He can only make you stronger. Life is an endless process of self-discovery...steep climbs, flat plateaus, then further climbs. Even though we all approach this journey from different directions, some of the characteristics of our journeys are similar to everyone else's
Ive lived with you all my life (excluding the past 5 years), and I love you with all my heart no matter who you were, have become or will become in the future.
Remember that your family care about you a lot..more than you can ever imagine. so take care of yourself.
Dont dwell in misery
praying for you always
xoxo